A Little 'Off'
from the just-not-quite-right department.
written by alan on March 30, 2003

Music: Hatrixx - Pressure (Deep Progressive Mix) / Lovetronic - You Are Love (After Hours Payback Vocal)

I don't know what it is, but I feel a little off today. Ever since last night I've been a little annoyed or angry or something like that. I don't like it tho. I haven't felt this way in a while, which is good...but why it had to come back now I'll never know. There have been a few arguments between friends...maybe I was just being a little too anal. Once again, I don't know.

It's been one of those days that I still wish I had that significant other in my life. I keep wondering if that person really will fill the emptiness that I experience. Perhaps it's something else that I seek. If it was happiness that I wanted, I could just go mix some music. That always makes me happy. The expression of my feelings in that manner lets everything negative flow out. But once all the ne3gativity is gone, there is an emptiness that remains. I just wish I could put my finger on what it is that I'm looking for. Of course, come tomorrow i'll just forget all about this. Work usually takes my mind off of other things...just like music, or the occasional drink i have with a few friends.

I think I really am going to start applying for jobs outside my city. I really do need to meet some new people and see what else is out there. There's nothing more here for me. I've used up all the resources I can find in this city. Its time to move on. That is, if some company needs my skills. I've got one year of solid experience...and much more knowledge than when i started. Maybe I'll finally get lucky and land a nice job that I can really enjoy. Something that will allow me to live comfortably while exploring the world around me.

Bleh...i need a hug :)

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