from the godspeed department.
written by alan on September 02, 2006

Hello St.Louissssss!

I write this from STL as i wait for my last connecting flight of the day. I figured, why not start and end a relationship with a trip down to see the one who started it all. It's been 3 years since I flew down to the southern states; three very long but also very short years. This time things have radically changed down here as well. If one thing is certain, this vacation promises to be something different. I may even get some sort of closure from it all down here.

Speaking of closure. I don't really know what it would take to bring closure to my last relationship. Mika is ready to be friends. I simply have to wait until I'm sure that I'm ready as well. It still bothers me that she's already over this and moved on, but like she said, it's been a long time coming. She apparently started moving on back in April. There are days when I think I should have left her in December.

But enough of that. I have to move on somehow. I've finished the last of the things I had plannned with Mika, and now it's time to see what other people are in my future. I paid a hefty fee, so I'm expecting something that's at least somewhat worth it. Let's take a step back for a moment...I'm a reasonably well-off, successful, kind-hearted person. I'm attractive in my own right, funny, sensitive, and caring. What's not to like about all of that? I mean, one that has taken the time to get to know me has ever not liked what they found. So, at the very, very least I'll meet and most likely make friends with 9 women when all is said and done. It could be less depending on what comes out of them as I meet them. As everyone always says; time will tell.

I hope it does. And I hope it does it sooner rather than later. I miss too much of what I've experienced. I more sure than I ever have been of what I need. Now I have to see if I can get it again.

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