from the taking-the-time-out department.
written by alan on April 20, 2006

I believe I've had a revelation today. It came after soliciting the advice and opinions of many people whom I feel confident to entrust my situation to. At first, my reaction to this week's event was purely emotional, and I think that's to be expected. After all, it's the first time this has ever happened to me. However, something that I am trying to do more of - take a time-out to relax and think about things - has allowed me to digest the pros and cons of what's going on.

I am starting to see this as a positive thing, not a negative one. Not only for both of the parties involved but for the relationship that they are a part of. I think that if the relationship makes it through this time, it will be better, stronger, and healthier than ever before. We can get through anything. I know this because we have each other, we have our respective friends, we have our respective families, and we have our lives; both together and apart.

I'm using this opportunity to think about myself and my life. Things like where I see myself in the future, what I see myself doing, who I see myself with, and what I want my life to be like. I am also taking the time to think about what and who I've become, the people that have made me who I am, and the things I cherish about those people. It may take longer than I think it will; and that's fine by me. Life is a continual growth process. I know i've strived to make many positive changes in my life lately. A good portion of them due to a person who cares a greal deal for me and whom I care a great deal for. It is this person that I will concentrate most on during my thinking time. I plan to communicate all of this to that person when they wish to hear it. The outcome of it doesn't matter. I really just want them to listen. :)

So, with that, I commit myself to thinking.

More as develops.

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