from the bottled-up department.
written by alan on December 14, 2006
It's wonderful to know that a particular person has the ability to handle the emotion associated with an event in a efficient manner. I, however, am one of those people not blessed with this highly-desired skill. It takes me a long period of time to handle any emotional turmoil at all. Mind you, I do it in my own way and use every resource that I have. What bothers me is the fact that I cannot be left to work through these things on my own. There must be something constantly nipping at my heels; dragging me back to all the things I wish to leave behind.
I want it to stop.
I'm not confident that I can continue in my life with the past bringing itself up in the ways which it has of late. All I can do is ignore it. Any attempt to confront what is holding me back with a physical response would only serve to aggravate the situation.
I want to forget the past. I will remember those things that are important to me, however I want to leave what has happened behind me and move forward with little to none of it.
I simply wish that my request would be honoured.
I wish you would stop hurting me.
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